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I just do not understand why I am feeling this way. There are so many things roaming in my mind. If these are people running inside that empty shell of mine, then probably, they would have been too tired by now.

But the thing is I do not even know what I am feeling. I just sense that there is so much agony inside of me. What is? That I cannot even attempt to decipher. Is it my class? Is it the pressure of the upcoming competitions? Is it my new found someone who I think is better than having none? Whatever it is, I believe, that my soul is clouded by so much pain and that its deepest recesses do no have the strength to redeem itself.

I am not easily swayed by things around me. I can bend, I can stoop, but never wallow in misery. Yet, I am now.

Rain comes and my heart could not even appreciate the cold sensation it offers. I look upon it as heaven's tears sympathizing with me. All I could harmonize is the pathetic feeling I am down with.

What could this be? Sometimes there are questions with no answers. No, they have answers but time reveals when.


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