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Into My Confusion

How can it be that the twof us will remain as what we are when my heart sings a different tune?


Ma, I am sorry. I feel so confused now but it does not meanI don't feel for you anymore. I am yours and will remain to be. It's still you and me. Nothing will change that. I just need time...time to re-connect with you and with whatever we have.


I am in love. I think I am. It will be foolish to dispense that love and hurt someone. I will be deceiving myself, you and someone with the few options I have. But with these options or not, I need to love and be loved.


Each time I close my eyes, I see a face, I imagine thosesweet little eyes staring at me, those soft voices whispering into my ears, but they do not belong to you.


Afraid I am of the fears I have inside. Don't blame me. I have kept my faithfulness all through these times. But frail as I am, my heart succumbs to temptation. I fought this battle with myself. I tried hard, and never had I done so in my life.


Love you, still I do. As tears flow down my cheeks, I make this resolve, that love will always be you.
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